Life. Now.

This post is going to be short and sweet. Mainly because I’m at work, drinking coffee and reading this awesome new book that my pastor just gave me. Yes I’m getting paid to do this in between making the occasional latte and I work for my pastor. It’s really a great job and I’m so blessed to have it, be jealous if you must but just for two seconds please J.

As a believer it’s easy to adapt the mentality, “If it’s Gods will, then it will happen.” It’s a little more difficult then that though. Knowing God’s will for your life doesn’t eliminate the fact that we must obey to get the blessing. You have to work WITH God to get what He has planned. His sovereign will over our lives is not an excuse to be lazy. That’s how you miss out on His blessings. If God is moving, you’ve got to be moving with Him or you may never get from where you are to where you want to go. Since I started this blog I’ve realized how easy it is to just be lazy once you know God’s will. But I’m learning that I can’t just sit around waiting for opportunities to fall into place, sometimes that will happen, but more often then not I’m going to have to seek things out for myself. It wasn’t until about 15 minutes ago when I was reading in this book that I realized why I tend to be lazy about it though.

FEAR.

I’m scared. It’s silly but I’m scared of all the good things that are on the verge of happening. In the past I’ve always seen my future and my purpose as being so far away so there’s no need to worry about it now, but why not now? All of the sudden I’m realizing that it’s here and now. I’ve got to act on what He’s calling me to do. Pursuing my dreams doesn’t mean that I’m no longer afraid though. I think that a part of me is always going to be a little bit scared of all of this but if I can just remember that my God is bigger then this little knot in my stomach then nothing can stop me. I’m actually conquering a fear right now by doing this. Growing up I always hated writing and on top of that I’m a very private person, so the idea of doing a blog this personal scares me more then a lot of things. But I know that if you’re reading this then you are on my support team. And if I want your support then I have to entrust you with what is going on with me. I’m human and I’m going to fail, but the Lord doesn’t fail and He’s leading me and opening up different opportunities. So if He’s opening these doors then I have to take the risk and bank on the fact that He can’t fail.

Patience Patience Patience

I was reading this morning and was lead to Micah 7:7 by a friend, and it couldn’t have come at a more appropriate time. It’s seriously SO good.

“But me, I’m not giving up. I’m sticking around to see what God will do. I’m waiting for God to make things right. I’m counting on God to listen to me.”

            You see I had just unburdened a lot on her and was starting to sound a little whiney, but she just let me talk my way into this little “pity party hole” I had dug and then simply handed me the right tools to get myself out. When she told me what verse I started to scoff at her because who seriously knows anything about the book of Micah? But, man was I wrong to doubt the Lord speaking through my sweet friend. So this got me thinking, what else am I missing by overlooking these small books by names that I can’t spell without looking them up? Oh hey Habakkuk.

“And then God answered: “Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what’s coming. It aches for the coming- it can hardly wait! And it doesn’t lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It’s on its way. It will come right on time.”

            So good, right?

            Confession time: I’ve been really frustrated since my last post and that’s why I haven’t posted for the past month. God had revealed so much to me in the span of just a couple of days and I was completely on fire and ready to get out there and help those sweet little orphans. And then all of the sudden I was getting nothing from him. Now that’s not entirely true, I was getting great stuff from Him, but it just wasn’t what I wanted to hear after getting flooded with awesomeness earlier.  “Wait.” That’s all I was letting myself hear and that is the most frustrating thing for someone to hear. My passion for these orphans that I WILL be helping to find homes is so great that the idea of waiting a couple of years seems like forever. Lucky for me there is India this summer.

            Have I mentioned how excited I am about this trip? I wish that it was this week, but I know that God will use the next 4 months to prepare my heart for what I know will be a life changing trip. There is so much to do in the mean time, like raising the money to go. It’s a lot of money but I’m also expecting a lot of support and I can’t wait to see how the Lord is going to work all of this out. I’m believing that the Lord has some great things in store for me so I’m really just trying to focus more on being patient with HIS timing because if it happens on my time I simply won’t be adequately prepared for any of this.

“We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised”

Hebrews 6:12