Life. Now.

This post is going to be short and sweet. Mainly because I’m at work, drinking coffee and reading this awesome new book that my pastor just gave me. Yes I’m getting paid to do this in between making the occasional latte and I work for my pastor. It’s really a great job and I’m so blessed to have it, be jealous if you must but just for two seconds please J.

As a believer it’s easy to adapt the mentality, “If it’s Gods will, then it will happen.” It’s a little more difficult then that though. Knowing God’s will for your life doesn’t eliminate the fact that we must obey to get the blessing. You have to work WITH God to get what He has planned. His sovereign will over our lives is not an excuse to be lazy. That’s how you miss out on His blessings. If God is moving, you’ve got to be moving with Him or you may never get from where you are to where you want to go. Since I started this blog I’ve realized how easy it is to just be lazy once you know God’s will. But I’m learning that I can’t just sit around waiting for opportunities to fall into place, sometimes that will happen, but more often then not I’m going to have to seek things out for myself. It wasn’t until about 15 minutes ago when I was reading in this book that I realized why I tend to be lazy about it though.

FEAR.

I’m scared. It’s silly but I’m scared of all the good things that are on the verge of happening. In the past I’ve always seen my future and my purpose as being so far away so there’s no need to worry about it now, but why not now? All of the sudden I’m realizing that it’s here and now. I’ve got to act on what He’s calling me to do. Pursuing my dreams doesn’t mean that I’m no longer afraid though. I think that a part of me is always going to be a little bit scared of all of this but if I can just remember that my God is bigger then this little knot in my stomach then nothing can stop me. I’m actually conquering a fear right now by doing this. Growing up I always hated writing and on top of that I’m a very private person, so the idea of doing a blog this personal scares me more then a lot of things. But I know that if you’re reading this then you are on my support team. And if I want your support then I have to entrust you with what is going on with me. I’m human and I’m going to fail, but the Lord doesn’t fail and He’s leading me and opening up different opportunities. So if He’s opening these doors then I have to take the risk and bank on the fact that He can’t fail.