Let's Get Real

            Let me preface this post by saying that regardless of how I feel about this when I finish, I WILL POST THIS. With that being said, I’m going to be more vulnerable in this post then I’ve possible ever been. As I enter this next season I have to admit that I’m scared. Like the kind of scared where I’ve cried myself to sleep more than once this past week. What am I so scared about, you ask? Well lets get this over with.

1.      That I’ll lose touch with friends I have in Boone. This isn’t number one for no reason.

2.     That I’m underestimating the “job” that’s ahead of me.

3.      That my family won’t entirely be fans of the me that I’ve become while I was away

4.     Making new friends

5.      Getting connected (like REALLY connected) in another church

6.     That I’ll be seen as the same girl that I was 5 years ago

7.      That I’ll get complacent and not keep pursuing my dream

8.      All the alone time I’m going to be having

9.     That any broken relationships are beyond mending

10.    That too much will be asked or expected of me

I could name other things, but what’s the point. The purpose of me telling you my fears is not to get sympathy or to make you worry in any way. This post is actually kind of selfish and more of a pep talk for myself than anything. I want to look back at this post in 3 months and laugh. I want to look back and be able to check off all 10 of these things as things that I’ve been able to overcome. I know that I will undoubtedly face all of these and more unexpected challenges BUT I know that my God is greater and that this is something that He’s called me to do. I am a conquer and I am an overcomer. There is not an ounce of slacker in me. I will succeed. I’m a daughter of the King of Kings and that means that His blood is in me. His blood covers and protects me from my “fleshly” fears. With Him I cannot fail.