Dear Tuesday

So I’ve decided to take a page out of my bestie’s book and blog more. Thanks for any and all inspiration P. However I choose to write to Tuesday, the most overlooked day of the week (in my opinion). J

Dear Tuesday, I want to start by saying how amused I am right now. Sometimes I think I’m a little crazy, but who says that’s a bad thing? I’m sitting in a coffee shop and I’m wearing a top that I got in India. I wear this because a piece of my heart was left there last summer, and I wear it in hopes of returning to visit but to never bring back here with me. I hope to one day have my heart broken so many times that pieces of it are in more places and people then I can name.

Dear Mama and Daddy, I don’t even know how to thank you for all the support and prayers for the past…well I would say 25 years but I know that it started long before that and long before I was born. I love that I was raised in such a God-loving family. But even more than that I love that I was given the choice to fall in love with Him for myself. That is honestly the best gift that you could have ever given me. If more people had parents like mine the world would truly be a better place.

Dear Pangshua, your friendship has been the sweetest surprise during this season. Like you, before moving I began praying for friends to fall into place. Friends that would encourage, pray and push on me. You have without a doubt been one of those for me. Our spirits have been aligned in a way that only God could be capable of. This season is such an exciting one for you, less than 2 months to becoming Mrs. Joshua Riley!! I’m so blessed to be connected to you and to be able to learn from you. And knowing that we’re going to “do life” together is the best feeling. “PROVISION” P.S. We’ve got babies to save and love all over the world!!

Dear Alli (my nicest friend haha), as you’re winding down from this life-changing trip to Honduras I ask that you not let that fire go out. It’s so easy to fall back into your comfortable routine and only think occasionally of those lives that you’ve forever changed (I know because I’m guilty of it myself). Go into your prayer closet, worship, and thank God for that opportunity and for the next one (yes there most definitely will be more!). You are a WORLD CHANGER. You inspire me in ways that I don’t even know how to express. You are one of the most genuine people that I know. You’re such a powerful prayer warrior. How you are able to spend your days with middle school kids and still love them is beyond me. That’s some serious grace right there, a grace that few people have. Your students are lucky to have you, and I think that if more people had had middle school teachers like you they wouldn’t talk about middle school with such disgust. Keep enjoying the rest before the madness known as August comes again. You’re hilarious. I’ve yet to find another friend that I can talk, laugh, cry, and even sit in silence with as well as I can with you. Distance or time apart (3 months?!) has yet to diminish our friendship and for that I’m thankful.

Dear Jesus, Coming into this season I knew that it would be painful. A season full of stretching and growth. A season of learning. A season of solitude. All of that I expected. However what I didn’t expect was how immediate it would be. I never expected that “quitting Boone” would be a “cold-turkey” kind of thing. Even now I’m finding it difficult to write out my exact feelings (as if you don’t already know). Lonely is the best word to use and I feel selfish and like a baby for even thinking it. I have to keep reminding myself that I’m called to be greater than that, and greater than where I am now. I know that it’s just the devil telling me that I’m alone and that I’m not truly that way. My flesh wants pity but my spirit knows better. So please don’t take pity on me because I’m far from lonely. If Jacob can continue to wrestle you with a broken hip to get his blessing from You, then certainly I can hold on during my “pain”. Just being transparent J. On a different note. Everyday I’m more and more amazed at your goodness. You have such a funny way of connecting the dots of my life. Thank you for waging a war for my soul. Thank you for telling me over and over that I’m worth it. Thank you for always running to meet me where I am. Thank you for continually forgiving me for the same silly sins. Thank you for the dreams and desires that you’ve given me. Thank you for already providing for all of them. Thank you for understanding my jumbled prayers. Thank you for reminding me everyday that NOTHING that I do can separate me from Your love. Thank you pursuing me. Thank you for teaching me how to be pursued. Thank you for knowing what I need before I say it. Thank you for knowing what I need before I even know myself. Thank you for gently helping me to set aside my own dreams for those You have for me, knowing that they are greater than mine. Jesus, I’m hopelessly in love with you. You are the true love of my life.

Tuesday I will do my best to talk to you again next week. Hopefully with each passing week this will get easier and easier. I love you, Tuesday even if I’m the only one J.